Wednesday, February 24, 2010

A Gracious Illness

I woke up sick this morning. Sneezing, coughing, headache, and anything else that DayQuil claims to cure.

The thing is, today is Wednesday. Wednesday is youth group here at Red Mountain. Not only that, but a few ministry friends are coming by tonight to check out our little student ministry community.

I'm trying not to be annoyed by the situation, but I am. Yet perhaps this is God's way of reminding me that my ministry is not about me. If my ministry is reduced to attempting to impress my pastoral peers or evaluated by how awesome I feel at a given moment, perhaps my heart is not in the right place. Perhaps my own ministry can become an idol. And perhaps this illness is not an inconvenience, but a bizarre encounter with grace, a grace that won't allow me to slip into the dangerous realm of pride.

So I'm sick. And I probably won't be on my A-game for youth group tonight--if I even go at all. But I'm spiritually healthier for it.

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