Thursday, July 1, 2010

The Comparison Game

Confession time: I compare myself with others.

It goes beyond the usual sizing-up, the "am I better or worse than you?" question, the labeling and categorizing and putting people into a box so I can analyze their strengths and weaknesses.

I compare my story with others' stories.

Their hopes, their experiences, their suffering, their personality, how God is working in and through them.

Which means that I'm actually comparing God's actions in my life with God's actions in others' lives, and thus missing the whole point: that God is working in and through me in a unique way. By comparing myself to others, I am doubting the creative and sovereign Story that God is telling through me and only me. And when I'm focused on what God is doing through other people, I may miss what He's doing in me.

I don't want to play the comparison game any more. So I don't need to worry whether or not my youth group is bigger/smaller than the one down the street. I don't need to focus on if this or that leader wrote a book/has more blog followers/has more education. Even deeper, I cannot compare my suffering with others. Nor can I compare my dreams or ambitions, nor my personality or traits. My story is my story is God's Story. I have to trust that He is telling it exactly how He wants to.

Then he [Jesus] said to him, "Follow me!" Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?" Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me."

1 comment:

  1. Guilty! Thanks for being authentic and posting this. Just yesterday I received the story below via fb. Think God might be trying to teach me something??
    http://www.gita-society.com/bhagavad-gita-section4/4_crackpot.htm

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